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*Warning: There are triggering events that take place in this novel.*
Synopsis: It would’ve been different if I had courage, even an ounce of it. But I was a coward from the day I met you, Ryan Crowley. I still am. In the end it doesn’t matter. The bottom line is the same. It’s my fault.
When the unthinkable happens Carly Cavanough is left beaten, betrayed, and devastated. Her best friend doesn’t understand. Her parents won’t listen. Everyone in her life turns against her. She’s alone. Completely alone, except for Ryan Crowley, the boy she’s been crushing on for years. She won’t admit to him what she can’t admit to herself. But he understands without words. He knows more about what she’s going through than she can possibly imagine and he knows what it will take to start the healing.
With Ryan’s help Carly begins to piece together the fragments of her once perfect life and embarks on a journey of love and healing, just long enough for the rug to be pulled out from under her again. Can she find the strength and will to pull herself together to save Ryan and herself when their lives are on the line?
Genres: New Adult, Crime, Abuse
Cover: I never paid much attention to the cover since this book was recommended to me personally by the author, Danielle Sibarium. But other than that the cover itself does portray the protagonist is in distress which is what this book is about. the main character in a distress and overcoming it.
What I Have To Say: To My Hero starts out with high school senior Carly Cavanough attending an end of the year banger where her boyfriend, Will, is waiting for her, angry that she’s slightly late to the party. As the night goes on, and Will becomes more and more belligerent, a terrible turn of events take place. While Carly goes upstairs to use the bathroom, staggering from side to side from intoxication, she discovers Will in the process of cheating on her. After the girl runs out, embarrassed, Will pulls Carly into the room in order to “apologize” for his actions and then proceeds to blame his actions on her. As their fight escalates, Will starts calling Carly vile names while proceeding to abuse her and handle her in a rough manner. Before she knows it, she is being choked by Will and suddenly blacks out.
When she wakes up, she is alone and on the ground and very much in denial of what actually just happened. She staggers into the bathroom and is soon discovered by her long time best friend who she has forever been in love with, Ryan Crowley. As he takes her away from the party, Carly cannot remember the events that just took place and admit what had just happened to her. Although she wants to just go home and forget the events that took place – she cannot and life as she knows it will change.
I’ve never read a book before that could bring out so much emotion from me. Reading about Carly’s journey and how her parents and friends were easily manipulated by her boyfriend angered me greatly. Her best friend, Ryan and his family were the only people who heard her out. The fact that no one close to Carly even thought about listening to her side of the story that contained the missing fact that she was raped by her monster boyfriend Will.
Being the first book I read that was centered around the aftermath of a toxic relationship and an inexcusable incident, I was surprised by how passionate I got while reading the book. Reading To My Hero invited me into the mind of Carly, who can represent countless girls in the world, a victim who was helpless in the beginning of the story and ended the story as a stronger person. The character development in the story was perfectly apparent and gradual. Sibarium does her job very well when it comes to portraying the conflicts and struggles that Carly must go through, and the demons she must face within herself and the one in real life.
There is a romance in the book, but I like to believe the focus was not just how Ryan was her hero because he loved Carly romantically, but because he cared for her and fell in love with her as a person. Ryan’s heroism is not simply based on his feelings but because he is a genuine good person who cares and can notice when someone is in distress and needs a push. I like to believe that he did not simply save Carly, but helped Carly save herself in the end.
I definitely recommend this book to anyone who would like to read something different from the usual plot line that revolves around a darker theme. It really touched my heart to read this in unexplainable ways, and I truly did enjoy it very much. Sibarium did an excellent job at writing this book that ends up being a blog post in the end (Carly posting her story online) . The end wraps up beautifully and realistically: Carly as a stronger person, but obviously still has some demons to face and things to overcome, but now she knows she has the strength to do it.